The Playboy Mansion doesn’t seem to be all fun and games… in fact it seems quite the opposite.

Ex girlfriend to Hugh Hefner, Holly Madison has made it clear that Hugh Hefner was manipulative and is releasing a tell all book Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, which is being released on June 23rd.

Holly released some of the best stories from the book and gave an exclusive interview to US Weekly. Madison recalls the first time she ever met Hef in 2001 while he offered her drugs. “‘Would you like a Quaalude?’ Hef asked, leaning toward me with a bunch of large horse pills in his hands, held together by a crumpled tissue,” Madison wrote in her memoir.

Holly polietly declined the pills and Heff did not miss a beat. ‘Okay, that’s good,’ he said, nonchalantly. ‘Usually, I don’t approve of drugs, but you know, in the ‘70s they used to call these pills thigh openers.’

“I want to scream ‘PAUSE!’ and freeze-frame that moment of my life. I want to grab that young girl, shake her back into reality and scream, ‘What the hell are you thinking?’” Madison continued.

Holly did end up moving in with Hef a couple of weeks after their meeting and soon became his number one girlfriend. Although the parties and all the girlfriends seemed very nonchalant… it wasn’t all fun. There were many rifts between the girls in the house and many arguments which turned out to be manipulated by Mr Hefner.

“I learned Hef was the manipulator and that he pitted us against one another,” she noted. “I realized I wasn’t treated well. I’m done being afraid of people. I don’t have any loyalty to Hef. I haven’t talked to him in four years, so there’s no reason to reach out now. Besides, it’s the truth.”

After much heartbreak, manipulations and constant arguments with former girlfriends it was time to Holly to leave the Playboy Mansion. It turns out that Hef tried to buy Holly to stay by including her in his will.

“It was there, in black and white,” she wrote. “The will stated that $3,000,000 would be bestowed to Holly Madison at the time of his death (provided I still lived in the Mansion). At the time, it was more money than I’d ever know what to do with… But I didn’t want it. I actually pitied him for stooping to that level. I couldn’t help but be offended. Did he really think he could buy me? I put the folder back on the bed just as I had found it and never breathed a word of it.”

After four years of no contact with Hef, Holly has found happiness with her husband Pasquale Rotella and their gorgeous daughter Rainbow.

I can’t wait for the release of Holly’s book!